Unexpected

Hey... its me, the owner if this blog. Hmm... actually i seldom tell openly about my life. Sometimes i just put a bit vent in my story. But, this time, i think i really want to tell you what i feel. Its about karma [ i dont really know how to call it in english, so..from now on, we call it in indonesia’s language].

Karma. I know all of you ever hear about this word. But i think not all people believe in it. My question is, do you believe in karma? Some people a bit hard to believing something without any prove, including me. I believe that everything in this world has their own consequences, but i think not always on the same way. The definition of karma in my mind is when you hurt someone, you will be hurted by someone else in the future. But we can not apply it to all people. Many people in this world havent experienced it yet.

Some days ago, suddenly i remembered this word. I thought maybe i was experiencing it. If it is true, i have been experiencing it for 5 month. And i think i have got 2, or maybe 3. Oh..my God. Hopefully it is not true.

So long ago, when i was in senior high school, i was closed by 2 mans. Both of them so kind and had their own way to get my heart. One of them told me about his feeling by short message service. And you know?? I didnt like it. I prefer be shot directly to indirectly. Because i feel that the effect is different, especially for me. Back to the first man. Before that, i was so closed with him. I regarded him as my brother. After he shot me, i was so afraid to meet him. I didnt know why. I just felt a bit worrie when i had to meet him. In short, i always run and tried to stay away. It happened for about a year, whereas we were in the same club.

Now, we move to the second man. This man so atractive and also has high confident. He treated me so well. Too well i think. He sent me his messages almost every day and sometimes he called me. One day, we watched movie together. He invited me and i accepted it. On the cinema, he brought me the ticket and a glass of coffee of course with a big box of corn. I felt uncomfortable on that time. After the film, he offered to have lunch, but i tejected it. On my mind, i just wanted to arrive at home as fast as i can. But, after we arrived at home, he didnt back earlier. Without my permission, he entered to my terrace and sat down, and then gave me a necklace in a red box. The situation made me feel more..and more weird. Time went by. After that day, he dissapeared. He never sent me message anymores..and of course never called me. When we met in an event, i always tried to stay away from him. I seldom talked to him. I just said hello and then went to another place. It happened for about 8 months.

For the third man, he was my ex. We didnt speak each other for about one and a half year whereas we were in the same class. Can you imagine it??? I never talked to him, i never went with him, and of course i seldom sat together with him. But now, everything is clear. We become a friendship again, and he already have a girlfriend. How nice.. J

Thats all my 3 cases. And now, do you know what happend?? A bit weird but real. Some months ago, i closed to someone. Actually didnt really close. Since the first time i met him, he just kept quiet. There were so many rumors between us, but, once again, he just kept quiet. Time went by, sometimes he sent me his messages. When we met in social network we chated alternately, and the climax of this case, we watched movie together. But after the cinema tragedy, we never met and talked for so long. Over all, he often dissapeared. And now, every time we meet, he just stay away from me. When he see me, he just say hello and then go to another place. So similar like what i did in the past. He dont want to sit and have a talk with me. He act as if there were nothing happened between me and him. And the most painful in this case, it feels like we never be a friend. I dont know when it is end, but i hope as soon as possible. Honestly, i hate such situation.

Thats why, now, i start thinking about karma.

How do you think???

Am i getting a karma?